In January, my friend Stephanie of Stephanie's Mommy Brain blogged about her experience reading Made to Crave. You can read her amazing testimonial here. I was privileged enough to win one of two copies of the book from her, and have been on my own Made to Crave journey ever since. Can I just say this isn't easy? It's fulfilling and meaningful and life changing, but I want it to be fun and exciting. It's not.
For any readers not familiar with the book, a quick summary would be that we are meant to have our needs met by God and not food. And when food (OR ANYTHING) else besides food meets our needs everything gets out of whack (sp?) This is not just a passing idea for me...this is a lifelong struggle. It's a battle that I am facing meal by meal and minute by minute.
I have been making small steps since I received the book (starting to work out semi-regularly, cutting out sodas, etc), but on Monday of this week I finally started eating well. By eating well, I mean getting some fruit and vegetables into my daily plan and not eating ice cream. This is day 3, and it's just hard. I walk around the house with the book close by saying to myself, "Alicia, you were made for more". So, I'm doing it, but not exactly happily.
After hoping to start blogging regularly again in February, I haven't. Ever since Monday I haven't written any new Facebook status updates. Why? Because all my energy is being taken up by redirecting my cravings from food to God. I don't mean for this blog to turn into just a food blog, but it is supposed to be about "experiencing each moment". These are my moments right now.
I know Lisa's book has spoken to a lot of people, and yet I don't hear anyone sharing the struggle I feel. If you know of someone blogging their battles to crave God instead of food, please write it in the comments! I've spent 37 years using food to address all my different emotions. I have a lot of re-learning to do. And it isn't fun.