February 1, 2009

Some Days I Feel like a Groundhog

I put all my hopes and expectations on the events of one day or one person. I decide in advance that the outcome of that particular experience will determine my short-term happiness. For example,

I have not had an email conversation with my husband since Tuesday night. I'm used to a day or two of email being down, but 6 days!!! Please don't make me stretch as a person!

Timothy is getting this weird sickness. It's been a stuffy/runny nose for a few days and a tiny cough when sleeping. Well, last night he still only showed the stuffy nose, but he was clearly miserable. I vaguely remember him crawling into my bed last night, but once he started KICKING me non-stop I realized he was there! For the next 2-3 hours he kept kicking me in his sleep because he was so restless.

I need continual, restful sleep to be a functioning human being.

I tried teaching him to face away from me so that when he kicked it would hit the air. I moved him back to his bed once, but he just found his way back to my bed 20 minutes later. I was so disoriented that it took hours of this before it dawned on me to give him medicine. So after some tylenol and benadryl, I went to sleep. I don't know how long after I heard him say, "I'm going back to my bed," and he's been there the rest of the night. Thank God!

In the night I heard him say, "Mom, I don't want to go to school today." He never says that, so we'll see how he's doing when he wakes up this morning. But it seems like if he has no fever, I should still take him?? We've been blessed with no sickness yet in Kindergarten, so I've never had to make this decision.

Two factors are influencing my day: no communication with my husband and a serious lack of sleep, so here is my plan...

Romans 12:12

12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

Psalm 63:6-8

6 On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.

7 Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.

8 My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.

Yes, there may be 6 more weeks of winter, 6 more months of deployment, and 6 more days of no email with Dan, but praise be to my God I don't have to depend on any of that to determine my joy or my sanity! My hope is in the Lord.


stephanie@{Olive Tree} said...

Great verses! I could do with those as reminders for me!

pam said...

Hope your little guy is on the mend. I hate that zombie feeling, after a night of little sleep.

Hope the next six days fly by quickly for you.

Anonymous said...

I hope you will have more restful sleep tonight. I can relate. My daughter is four and does not sleep through the night. Although my husband is not gone continually, he does travel, and I can get so worn down without a good night's rest! I hope your son will feel better and you can get some sleep!

Jennifer said...

Hope Timothy feels better! And that the email fixes itself sooner than later. Big Hugs to you all!

Froggymama said...

Six months, wow, I don't know how you do it! What courage and faith!

Hopin' your little guy feels better soon. It is sooooo no fun when they're sick.

The Wristen Family said...

I love you! You are my friend and when I read your wisdom my heart delights! I am so blessed to have you in my life. I thank God for you. I will pray that Timothy sleeps and sleeps well so he can feel better and you can be restored.

Sheila said...

I'm so glad you shared this!

Laura said...

I hope you are doing well. I'd love to be able to chat via email. If you would like to, please leave your email address on my blog and I won't post it. Hang in there!